lets get over love [for now]

from what i see . . .



love is giving you everything i have
love is being down for you since day one
love is standing the way you treat me

remember how ud pick fights with me for no reason?
remember when you lied n told me i was your only one?
remember how you chose her over me every time?

i hate how much i love you.
i hate how much i need you.
i hate how much i want you.

but how i love your broad shoulders
i love the way you rub me
and i love the way you kiss me

love is pain
pain is love
and when it rains, it pours.

they say love is blind and i know its true..
‘cause everytime i close my eyes
all i see is you.

[ ↑ moi - lol ]

.. s i g h .. how corny

ANYWAYS::

I believe that about half of what we think is love -- is actually an allusion. Love is like a semi-precious stone: it can only be found every once in a while. I think every girl’s dream is to find real true love. I won’t even front like i’m not included. I can’t wait to find my own Prince Charming. But until then i have decided to hold off on the romantic aspect of love [between a man and myself]. Why? Because it’s too distracting. All the time i spent on the phone with [him], i could have been catching up on reading or writing a paper. Granted, i have poor self control, but still.. I realized that i need to put myself before everyone right now. I mean.. i am building my future and everything. And not just me, i think every young adult in today's society needs to give “love” a break. Exclude genuine, honest love you may have for an individual.. but the over-dramatic, sickingly romanticized love u see on, let’s say, myspace. I really think that some people take advantage of the emotions, feelings, and acts involved. The shit is more than four letters. In fact, as far as i'm concerned, love is a verb – not a noun. You can tell me you love me a million times, but i swear i wont believe you till i see it. Prove it to me.

Thus.. I have decided to build the love involving my education, God, my sisters, and my family. First and foremost i will focus on loving myself [not saying that i already don't]. After all, a girl can’t possibly love another without truly loving herself. So for now im cool :) I’ll forge new friendships and add on to old ones.

Allow me to explain myself: I am by no means a love hater or anything. I just think that we are too young and inexperienced to handle the real deal. Seriously. Do half you really know what love is?! I know i havn’t totally figured it out yet. But, hey, that’s just one more thing i’m anxiously waiting to learn.

infinitely yours.
pilar ❤