heart ache..my chronic bitch dependency is acting up

i miss Pilar. ya know its not easy spending every waking moment with a person then going weeks without them. she's been on a cruise with the Dawsons. i need her to swim back from Hawaii so we can get everything poppin once more. spring 09 aint ready for me, let alone us.

come back to me baby!!!

btw. we still need to launch this bad boy.
people rush into production without doing research
and i've been researching my ass off
for personal reasons
and i'm nice enough to share my wisdom.
lol just kidding

so it's the new year
goals were for last year
accomplishment is this year's agenda
and for the many years I have to come

moving forward

Isis**~

aka SIKU

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blast...but it's funny

this is not a poem [[taste of perfection]]

one woman
many men

confusion?
sometimes..
i have one heart, but it attaches to a number of different souls
simultaneously, yet one at a time

you make me feel
turns into they make me feel

i'd like to think each lover gave me a piece that one day all put together
will make me whole
i'd like to end the brevity of my affairs
and crown someone as my permanent mr. perfect

i know what i want
i get what i want
but what i get does not last

i guess i can say
admiration preceeds admiration
passion preceeds passion
love preceeds love
trust preceeds trust

so i'm going to aquire all the love i've already experienced
the only difference being
His love will be without limit

so for now, i will keep tasting perfection. i am still young, so sex is all i expect. i'm too independent to cry about not having one significant other. love comes, love goes. and yes, i experience true love and passion for those i do not plan on being with at no contest, so don't try to argue the fact that i indeed love these guys. the comparison is not whether or not love is true, but whether or not it is without bound. i loved my first, but we are no longer together. but i would be insulting my experience to say it wasn't "true" love because it was. till death do us part. that means forever, as opposed to a love affair whose sole purpose is to provide experience that later contributes to the finale. i know when i'll say i do.

moving forward

Isis**~

lets get over love [for now]

from what i see . . .



love is giving you everything i have
love is being down for you since day one
love is standing the way you treat me

remember how ud pick fights with me for no reason?
remember when you lied n told me i was your only one?
remember how you chose her over me every time?

i hate how much i love you.
i hate how much i need you.
i hate how much i want you.

but how i love your broad shoulders
i love the way you rub me
and i love the way you kiss me

love is pain
pain is love
and when it rains, it pours.

they say love is blind and i know its true..
‘cause everytime i close my eyes
all i see is you.

[ ↑ moi - lol ]

.. s i g h .. how corny

ANYWAYS::

I believe that about half of what we think is love -- is actually an allusion. Love is like a semi-precious stone: it can only be found every once in a while. I think every girl’s dream is to find real true love. I won’t even front like i’m not included. I can’t wait to find my own Prince Charming. But until then i have decided to hold off on the romantic aspect of love [between a man and myself]. Why? Because it’s too distracting. All the time i spent on the phone with [him], i could have been catching up on reading or writing a paper. Granted, i have poor self control, but still.. I realized that i need to put myself before everyone right now. I mean.. i am building my future and everything. And not just me, i think every young adult in today's society needs to give “love” a break. Exclude genuine, honest love you may have for an individual.. but the over-dramatic, sickingly romanticized love u see on, let’s say, myspace. I really think that some people take advantage of the emotions, feelings, and acts involved. The shit is more than four letters. In fact, as far as i'm concerned, love is a verb – not a noun. You can tell me you love me a million times, but i swear i wont believe you till i see it. Prove it to me.

Thus.. I have decided to build the love involving my education, God, my sisters, and my family. First and foremost i will focus on loving myself [not saying that i already don't]. After all, a girl can’t possibly love another without truly loving herself. So for now im cool :) I’ll forge new friendships and add on to old ones.

Allow me to explain myself: I am by no means a love hater or anything. I just think that we are too young and inexperienced to handle the real deal. Seriously. Do half you really know what love is?! I know i havn’t totally figured it out yet. But, hey, that’s just one more thing i’m anxiously waiting to learn.

infinitely yours.
pilar ❤

ice's first blog {{artist}}

active mind
passionate heart
in the low of my atmosphere
but in the high of my mind

I've been observing a new perspective of women. {{I define woman as an individual who has a vagina as a reproductive organ}}. This different outlook on the female sex and gender is one that progresses the status of women in this physical and spiritual realm. Men are experiencing true love. Claiming blatant dependency on a woman he adores but still won't be faithful to. All affairs aside, love is love. I am not upholding the thought that men do not experience true love, I'm just noting the fact that male/masculine feelings are being more and more revolved around a key woman he's accepted to be his all {{or majority lol}}.



My favorite is woman to woman. It's a good thing when a woman admires another woman. I've been spending a lot of time with my Mills women, and they are outstanding. I learn so much from them. We all keep expanding our minds so that our contribution can be made. It is important to respect and love other women. Unity will restore balance.

artist

sculptor of variety

your masterpiece

holds so many unknowns

yet so many wonders

from the earth to the sky

from macro to micro

the essence of variety

and constancy

moving forward

Isis **~